Things I did in 2018

1. Went to Dollywood 
2. Went to Thailand and Cambodia after wanting to for at least a decade 
3. Went to Angkor Wat in 90-degree heat 
4. Ate scorpion, water bug and silkworms at the Bug Cafe in Siem Reap 
5. Free swam in the Andaman Sea 
6. Spent my birthday getting two Thai Massages 
7. Took a Thai cooking class in Thailand 
8. Rode a tuk-tuk for the first time 
9. Celebrated my first wedding anniversary 
10. Went to the Titanic Museum in TN 
11. Went to the Mall of America in MN 
12. Built a copper wardrobe rack from scratch 
13. Got very close to a Komodo Dragon at the Denver Zoo 
14. Painted and upcycled a rusty IKEA cart that I found to store art supplies 
15. Finally designed and 3D printed something, with my 3D printer 
16. Graduated with my Bachelor's degree, FINALLY! 
17. Took a Trapeze class 
18. Went to New Orleans for the first time 
19. Made my own Kombucha from scratch for the first time

Now, what will I do this year?!

2016- The Year of Minimalism and Experiences

1. Went Spelunking -Ruby Falls
2. Went to Kentucky and Tennessee (bringing the total of states to 26)
3. Japanese Crepes (delicious)
4. Ate Gourmet bugs for free (grasshoppers)
5. Spoke to a Snow Leopard @ Bronx Zoo
6. Walked across the Manhattan Bridge
7. Completed the goal of eating at all the Ethiopian restaurants in Brooklyn
8. Went Ziplining for the first time in the Dominican Republic
9. Took a vacation in the Dominican Republic (first time doing an all-inclusive resort)
10. Kayaking on the Hudson River (World's Only Free Kayaking Program)
11. Rode the Seaglass Carousel and Jane's Carousel
12. After 8 years of living here, finally walking across the Brooklyn Bridge
13. Ran a 5k
14. Went to Glass Bottle Beach in Dead Horse Bay
15. Made soap for the first time
16. Made my own Professional Perfume
17. Tried Tibetian food and loved it!
18. First hiking trip (Palisades in NJ) the hardest course too! Rock Scrambling
19. Went to Both Cat Cafes in NYC (Manhattan and Brooklyn)

Friendship and the other hassles of being social

Summer cleaning is among us, the longer I am in a consumerist environment the more it hurts my soul. I'm bathed in advertisements and sold in a million different ways before I can even get to where I'm going.

Things I want to do before leaving NYC, Left on April 15th 2017 after close to 10 years

1. Aerial Classes (bought groupon will take soon)
2. Thai cooking classes
3. 3D Printing Class (have one online but not completed it)
4. LED Programming Class attended June 21st
5. Taxidermy class attended last fall
6. Try Bhutanese cuisine
7. Ethiopian cooking class
8. Earning my Bachelor's degree finally 
9. Have a studio space I have a space since Dec/2013
10. 3D Print a design I created
11. Trapeze class
12. Work on my portfolio for a solid few months
13. Stop taking any new freelance projects for the next 3 months
14. Work on my etsy store
15. Quit working my part time job when I will have reached 4 years
16. All dental projects completed
17. Stop buying clothes for a few months
18.  Patternmaking for shoes class
19. How to make your own pair of shoes class
20. Pay down my Paypal credit line (again)
21. Welding class (taking this Saturday)!
22. Have no roommates! except my bf woohoo
23. Make my own sushi
29. Survival basic skills class
30. Really become fluent in French
31. Learn Dutch and/or German
32. Make a pair of earrings and necklace from scratch
33. Get a full time job
34.Try a sensory deprivation tank
35. Go hiking in a difficult trail
36. Make soap
37. Make my own perfume that is more professional
38. Live alone
39. Live alone for a year
40. Have a lease in my name and pay utilities 

Drinking however in short bursts is good for the soul.

Revisting an old topic from a different time 7 years ago

Places I said I wanted to travel to 7 years ago with the ones I've visited crossed out

 North America Canada Toronto, Montreal, Vancover. B.C,

 I've been to 24 out of 50 USA States. Only States in the USA that I've NOT been to: Alabama, Alaska, Arkansas, Arizona, Colorado, Hawaii, Idaho, Iowa, Kansas, Louisiana, Minnesota, Mississippi, Montana, Nebraska, Nevada, New Mexico, North Dakota, Oregon, Oklahoma, South Dakota, Texas, Utah, Washington (state), West Virginia, Wisconsin, Wyoming,

South America Argentina Brazil

Africa Tanger, Morocco Cairo, Egypt South Africa Ethiopia (new addition)

Asia Kathmandu, Nepal Shanghai, China Hunza Valley in northern Pakistan Thailand Bhutan, or the Land of the Thunder Dragon, is the only remaining Buddhist Himalayan kingdom.

Oceania Australia New Zealand Fiji

Europe Germany Greek Islands Iceland Sweden Denmark Norway Prague, Czech Republic Romania Russia Ukraine Hungary Amsterdam, Netherlands Estonia, Belgium, England

Middle East Lebanon, Israel, Qatar, Dubai

Caribbean Dominican Republic, Jamaica

 ------------------------------------------- mardi 27 novembre 2007 New Beginning It's so easy for me to leave and start over but I'm doing the one thing that I am bad at. STAYING I can't seem to sit still and build, I always need to change and do something new. Well I've done all the new things I can think of and now I'm back at the beginning. Having learned a hard lesson. It's time to grow up just a little bit and build instead of destroy. Go through with instead of come out of a situation. Give up to choicelessness Open myself up to a world of understanding I didn't know Explore the new me whose walls have been left down Whom cannot even recognize the reflection anymore Sometimes I forget that I was THIS PERSON

Welcome to a breathe of fresh air


I'm not going to cloud down your thoughts with regurgitated sentences and thoughts such as commonly heard conversations on the subway. "What's that Sally you say? oh you have a hair appointment today?" How f#%&ing exciting....

I cannot exclude myself from all of this but damn if I don't put effort into at least having something more offbeat to say. Sometimes I actually take what people say seriously because I genuinely enjoy good conversation. Unfortunately for me and many intellectuals alike; the art of conversation has been lost. And I find that in most social situations, I will be writhing in pain from sheer ennui and ineptitude of the majority of people to hold my attention.


That being said, I have come across PJ Harvey's interview about her new album and it reminded me how I once was. I used to be far more curious about the world I live in and more interested in if it had anything to offer me (I'm not just speaking financially) but in culture, respect and commodity.

I remember when I... used to be excited about learning everything about a new found subject and analyze; seek to replicate it in my own way. That's still part of being idealistic and the more I have to deal with crowded subways and shoving or getting shoved by zoo animals the less and less those parts of my brains want to develop.


I can't even imagine the way most people think. Are they really blissfully unaware of what is going on RIGHT HERE in our own backyard... why aren't we fundraising for our own homeless/storm relief victims, why are we instead giving money to a country that was already impoverished? At this rate Haiti will be a better developed country then us in no time. The Great Ole USA isn't so great anymore. It's becoming harder and harder to ignore/deny (whichever you or I are guilty of, presuming we educate ourselves on the state of currents events)


No one wants to listen to what is really going on, I'm not excluded from that. I'd rather not hear about "revolving doors and FEMA camps" but I don't think I'm ignorant enough to disagree. Also with the heaping amount of evidence I've read and watched it's becoming harder to dismiss altogether.


Part 2: After watching a campy high school themed movie, a movie that is very current I might add... a thought occurred to me... wait people in high school today are still virgins at 16-17... um not last time I checked; you see kids screwing at 12 with babies on the way because 1- they were never taught about birth control and condoms 2- are against abortion 3- Were set that example by their parents 4- Have no one around to love them so they need a baby to love them.

All pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry....Revisiting old memories and thoughts

There is something very rewarding about spending time with old friends, to see the progress they have made and that you've made. The past few days I've been feeling nostalgic for no apparent reason, starting listening to The Becoming and it felt very right, put me back into that head space of being a 16 year old introvert. 

All the best of my friends are introverts at heart. I can feel how close I am to finally getting to the place I want to in my life and career. I'll still probably always feel behind in some way, but considering all the obstacles I've had to crawl out of it, could be much worse. I'm incredibly lucky in so many ways and I've driven.

 You never stop being an overachiever, its built into you. 

I need a weekend to myself to just get out of all the work flow etc. Vacation is coming up soon so that's probably going to be it. Tonight reminiscing with an old friend, fondly recalling walking around alone, exploring. The first time experiencing that surge of independence and freedom. I just spent on and off a week obsessing about a pivotal essay that is life changing. I counted minimum 15 discarded, reworked essay drafts. 

Perhaps people don't see the perfectionist in me or maybe they do. I hate being bad at anything and naturally am good at most things. But oddly enough I don't care as much about the work I do for others. Apologies if that doesn't seem like such an epiphany. Damned if I don't try projecting that....

 I still bite my nails due to the obsessive nature of my restlessness and acute anxiety that is no longer debilitating. That 19 year old girl with social anxiety is long gone. (Quit Feb 2015)

    I'm fantasizing about waking up one day in a place that birds chirps and there's a secret garden. No loud noises or asshole neighbors. Utopia. Randomly in the middle of my pheasant job I realized that I am finding it harder and harder to have to attend social gatherings, because I am genuinely disinterested in the bulk of the patrons I meet have to say. It doesn't much matter since people are pretty self-absorbed and opportunistic, so the only thing we have is self-preservation. 

      What is most disappointing when I come across people who are on psyche meds, if you cant function I understand but otherwise just deal with shit. No one told you life was going to be like this, I get that. but just deal with it. Hey entitled millennial bs person, yeah no one cares about you, especially if you are not part of the elite. And trust me fellow urbanite it isn't you or me who is in that social circle. Also its not cute or quirky that your roommate plays the accordion. Mostly because she's not a mime and isn't good either. 
 
     I've put out my feelers and done the very best I could do and can't do more than that. I fantasize about 30K showers with custom rock walls and a steam room. Living in a "nice for NYC apartment" makes you feel like the modern equivalent of living in the poorest village in India. Only because you know that you shouldn't be paying the crazy rent you pay for the shitty apartment you have, which is still nicer than a lot of other people's. You know that in order to have a standard nice apartment you have to pay through the nose. 

All you need is a dollar and a dream, all you need is just a Red Bull and a pen.

A Fairy Nytemere

A Fairy Nytemere by truddietrixy featuring paisley throw pillows